two eyes

SWEET DREAMS ARE MADE OF THIS

2010-04-14T14:55:00.004+10:00

Is there ever an end to the tension that is familial relations?

PICTURE FROM WEHEARTIT.COM

WINTER. WANDERLUST.

2010-03-31T08:41:00.003+11:00

Actually, I'm enjoying this time away from work, don't mind the rain either, paradoxically sets fire to my imagination.

PICTURES FROM WEHEARTIT.COM

Rebel yell

2010-03-30T19:40:00.002+11:00

"Give your name and serial number and wait for society to form around you" - Quentin Crisp

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ST. VALENTINE

2010-02-14T17:26:00.000+11:00

I know it's a big old load of shit, but Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

RIP ALEXANDER MCQUEEN

2010-02-12T14:22:00.002+11:00

Sure to leave a gaping hole.

PICTURES FROM WEHEARTIT & STYLE.COM

DRENCH

2010-02-05T22:18:00.001+11:00

It's Friday and it's raining. Seems just about perfect to me.

PICTURES FROM WEHEARTIT

THE SARTORIALIST

2010-01-18T23:14:00.004+11:00

Who does not love this blog, seriously. I always find it so inspiring, especially the way people's uniqueness and creativity is celebrated - even if it's unexpected. These are some of my favourite looks, but more specifically, looks that I could conceivably be found wearing - except the Balmain jacket that Ms. Alt is rocking, that's the stuff of dreams! Yes, I have a thing for blazers and I'm so glad he likes girls in blazers too!

PICTURES FROM THE SARTORIALIST

QUOTABLE

2010-01-17T15:14:00.003+11:00

"Forgetting all I know, I try to describe these things, and only then do I realise, yet again, that the past is incommunicable."

- from Birchwood by John Banville

PICTURE FROM WEHEARTIT

WHEN YOU COME BRING THE SUN

2010-01-16T12:51:00.005+11:00

Been listening to El Perro Del Mar, revelling in its beautiful melancholy, feeling restless and smoking til my head spins...

PICTURES FROM GOOGLE, WEHEARTIT & HAW-LIN

A WORD ON WHAT TO WEAR

2010-01-15T22:53:00.003+11:00

"Clothes," Virginia Woolf tells us in Orlando, have "more important offices than merely to keep us warm; they change our view of the world and the world's view of us."

"A FRACTION OF THE WHOLE" (STEVE TOLTZ)

2010-01-03T00:59:00.001+11:00

"I had since devoured many philosophy books from the library, and it seemed that most philosophy was petty argument about things you just couldn’t know. I thought: Why waste time on insoluble problems? What does it matter whether the soul is made up of smooth, round soul atoms or of Lego, it’s unknowable, so let’s just drop it. I also found that, geniuses or not, most of the philosophers undermined their own philosophies, from Plato onward, because almost no one seemed willing to start with a blank slate or endure uncertainty. You could read the prejudices, the self-interest and desires of every single one. And God! God! God! The most brilliant minds coming up with all these complicated theories and then they say, ‘But let’s just assume there’s a God and let’s assume he’s good.’ Why assume anything? To me, it was obvious man created God in his own image. Man hasn’t the imagination to come up with a God totally unlike him, which is why in Renaissance paintings God looks like a skinny version of Santa Claus. Hume says that man only cuts and pastes, he doesn’t invent. Angels, for instance, are men with wings. In the same way, Bigfoot is man with big foot. This is why I could see in most ‘objective’ philosophical systems man’s fears, drives, prejudices and aspirations written all over them."

DON'T STOP TO SURRENDER...

2009-12-29T22:31:00.001+11:00

COME AROUND TO MY WAY OF THINKING...

2009-12-21T11:48:00.001+11:00

...it's only walking distance

"SWALLOW THE AIR"

2009-12-17T19:40:00.006+11:00

"I remember what my mum had said to me once about worries. She said when we worry, when something is pulling us down, we should take a walk. A good walk, she said, a long walk. Rhythm tangles behind you, scurries up ahead, and somehow in between, something makes sense. One foot is your heart and one foot is your mind. Together, they can make your worries easy, clearer. 'Just walk,' she'd say, 'just gotta walk.'

I suppose in the end she couldn't find her feet.

And with the crying inside me, that I could not make out, of words or voice, I began to walk.

Listen, Issy had said.

I listened. And the voices would come out, emerging from button grasses, bark shavings and water. Mother. Brother. Anger. Fear. All soaked in sorrow. Intricate words like Joyce's photo tree of faces. Day doused them yellow, but night crawled the dark moons, hiding the light. And answers.

Each day I asked the voices, why I'm here? What I'm doing?

They did not answer. But I kept asking anyway, to make sure that it was ok. Still they did not tell."

-from "Swallow the Air" by Tara June Winch

DUM DUM GIRLS "DON'T TALK TO ME" (GG ALLIN COVER)

2009-12-13T21:31:00.002+11:00

Dum Dum Girls- "Don't Talk To Me" (GG Allin cover) from the great pumpkin on Vimeo.

2009-12-13T13:28:00.008+11:00

"Rational arguments don't usually work on religious people. Otherwise, there wouldn't be religious people."

- Doris Egan

This quote popped up on my igoogle page a couple of days ago and really pissed me off. And though it is no longer my cup of tea, some of the most intelligent, rational people I know are "religious" (if that's the word to describe people who have a faith). Growing up around the church I've encountered more than my fair share of religious craziness, but please, tarring everyone with the same brush? So childish whoever you are Doris Egan.

How I get by...

2009-12-13T11:07:00.011+11:00

Karen O and the Kids;

coffee & cigarettes;

Katie Eary Spring 2010;

driving home from town full of Guiness listening to Bob Marley's Greatest Hits;

Blonde Ambition (brought to you by Deborah Harry);

The Phoenix Pub

Saturday night's alright...

2009-12-12T20:40:00.001+11:00

&c

2009-12-12T19:10:00.003+11:00

In one month I will turn 27.

The days roll by like thunder
Like a storm that's never breaking,
All my time and space compressed
In the low pressure of the proceedings,
And they beat against the sides of my life,
Like fists against the sides of my life,
And the roads all lead behind me,
So I wrap the wheel around me
and I go out.

2009-10-28T21:43:00.002+11:00

"Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, painting, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this your work (and theft) will be authentic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is non-existent. And don't bother concealing your thievery - celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: 'it's not where you take things from - it's where you take things to'."

- Jim Jarmusch

Fever, sure has got me good

2009-10-28T21:35:00.001+11:00

My brain is a messy collage of desires and ambitions and lusts and general feelings of frustration and excitement and indulgence. Today at work I clucked like a chicken and told the more adventurous of my female residents that I needed a man in that way. "I have needs too!" I said and winked and they laughed raucously. So much for the generation gap. Later on my favourite girl to work with (though she is in her 40s and has two teenage daughters) told me about her first sexual encounter with her husband over a packet of menthol cigarettes (ugh! I was too lazy to go inside and get mine). We both commented that it was an odd day, we were strangely scatter shot Alices in Wonderland and our residents were holding up the sane, oddly calm end of the bargain. Was it lack of sleep? Was it the claustrophobic humidity? Strangely satisfying nonetheless.

I bought new copies of frankie and RUSSH to read on my lunch break, and when I thought about it, completely agreed with Pip Brophy's 'top five essentials for the sunny season': 1. A cute boy 2. Blueys beach (any beach would do right now) 3. The sun on my face 4. BBQs on balmy nights 5. Sunday afternoons with friends that you wish would never end. I am strangely excited about the forthcoming summer in a way I find strange and foreign, I am trying to analyse why, but maybe I should just go with the flow and let my skin go gradually brown.

Also, there are lots of pretty things I am liking the look and sound of. This sort of miscellany is the glue that actually holds me together...

- Kylie Minogue - Fever
- by Alexander Wang

- lots of necklaces at once
- dark-haired boys in navy-blue suits
- perfect weather for maxi dresses
- new white hair on saturday
- this girl in this dress (by Vivienne Westwood)

- lustlustLUST (think Pj Harvey's This Is Love)
- tacky red fingernails
- fish & chips & tomato sauce

...In less exciting news, this is why I can't afford to FIX & REGISTER MY FREAKING CAR!!!:
Gas Bill (quarterly) - $230
Electricity Bill (quarterly) - $133.50
Internet Bill (monthly) - $113 (don't go over your bandwidth children!)
Foxtel Bill (monthly) - $66
Insurance Repayment - $200
Repayment for Smash Repairs - $100
That's $842.50 worth of bills and repayments in the first week of November. Ok, the last two come out regularly, but seriously, that's still $542.50 without them. Grrr! I don't think frustrated really covers how I'm feeling right now.

How-to

2009-10-21T23:07:00.001+11:00

It's best to just let what's in you come out.
- Paul Hewson

Blueprint

2009-10-12T12:26:00.001+11:00

A few pointers on writing short stories from Kurt Vonnegut's Bagombo Snuff Box:

1. Use the time of a total stranger in such a way that he or she will not feel the time was wasted.
2. Give the reader at least one character he or she can root for.
3. Every character should want something, even if it is only a glass of water.
4. Every sentence must do one of two things – reveal character or advance the action.
5. Start as close to the end as possible.
6. Be a sadist. No matter how sweet and innocent your leading characters, make awful things happen to them – in order that the reader may see what they are made of.
7. Write to please just one person. If you open a window and make love to the world, so to speak, your story will get pneumonia.
8. Give your readers as much information as possible as soon as possible. To hell with suspense. Readers should have such complete understanding of what is going on, where and why, that they could finish the story themselves, should cockroaches eat the last pages

Decisions, decisions

2009-10-10T20:57:00.002+11:00

"I'm divided as to whether one likes to have books, or to write fiction without interruption."

- Virginia Woolf

Thinking in pictures

2009-10-05T18:12:00.000+11:00

I have been thinking a lot about art, the flat visuals feeding into my thoughts seamlessly and stirring up sediment and memories from years ago; recalling fondness and passion and making me realise that geography and layout can dictate a certain type of sensory experience.

From my bedroom window I can see Mt. Stromlo, where Rosalie Gascoigne lived with her astronomer husband. She moved from the wet hills of Auckland to this struggling little outpost in 1943, mastering ikebana and reforming waste into beauty. The telescope is still there, they restored it after the fires in 2003 but the hill upon which it sits is still naked. Its barrenness reminds us of whole streets destroyed in minutes. Plants are slow to grow, things take time to heal, longer than we think (or allow).

Rosalie Gascoigne, Suddenly the lake, 1995

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2009-09-30T19:14:00.000+10:00

We don’t talk about my sister anymore. She came out of my mother’s womb with a question on her tongue, but it was five years before we began to hear it. After that time the question banged and rattled so loudly that it was impossible to ignore. Those blank, dumb eyes staring out from deep cauldrons of unknown origin, the distorted movement of her branch-like limbs spinning like uncontrollable pinwheels. We were scared of her and she knew it.

With thick hair curling around her neck like caramel she moved through the house like a youthful Ophelia, gorgeous and demented in her world which she carried as a shield around her. It was like the wind, this world, we could sense its whispers, feel its bitterness roar through us, but never actually see it; we knew it was there but could never pin it down to anything corporeal in nature.

Sometimes, when the fireball inside ceased to burn, she would turn to me and smile, and for the briefest of moments the soul that lay trapped inside would tremble and wake and she became more human than any human being I have known before or since. These moments were eternal; yet, when I recall them I realise they could not have spanned more than the few seconds it took for her to stretch her muscles into a grin and flash her teeth like a freshly painted picket fence. Whirling away like a wild animal, her matted her aflame in the dying embers of afternoon light, I was left to wonder at what I had just encountered. Which was the real girl? Was this untamed thing just a shell, a trap in which something more delicate was caught, or were these exploding limbs a mere physical manifestation of the currents running wild in the limbic region somewhere beneath her thick crust of skull.

The Writer's Life

2009-09-30T18:38:00.000+10:00

From Wrestling with the Angel: A Life of Janet Frame by Michael King

"It is the invisibility of the material - ideas, dreams, feelings - that arouses wonder. The inspiration is in the discoveries the writer makes on the imaginative journey - darkened landscapes are suddenly drenched with light, you know how the novel will go and where it will end." pp. 397-98

"Of course one doesn't write unless one is haunted. I don't write unless...and idea haunts me." p. 398

"She now relinquished her pursuit of Catholicism, 'because when it comes to the crunchy crunch I can't be ruled over by an institution...I haven't the energy to submit myself to that kind of house-cleaning...[The] only cleaning which suits me is in the institution of language, spoken, written, unspoken...'" p. 417

"I know my limitations. The only thing I have is a clear way of seeing something. However, my expression falls short. I'm constantly embarrassed by my small vocabulary of vital words." p. 452

"In writing the autobiographies, she said, her 'imagined treasures [had] faded in the light of this world, in their medium of language they have acquired imperfections [and] lost meaning that seemed, once, to shine from them and make your heart beat faster with the joy of discovery of the matched phrase or cadence, the clear insight. Take care. Your recent past surrounds you, has not yet been transformed. Do not remove yet what may be the foundation of a palace in Mirror City.'" p. 469

"Writing was and is so much a means of survival, and anything which interferes with that, which makes me waver, is, for me I feel, quite dangerous. I always feel I have to have this strong sense of being myself. It's not something you get and keep - and you have to keep renewing it." p. 472

Miaow!

2009-09-28T11:25:00.000+10:00

Look at that: I'm just starting out and my boots are already dirty! How will this experiment in further compartmentalisation go? .....